Showing posts with label species. Show all posts
Showing posts with label species. Show all posts

Wednesday, 19 June 2013

WHILE THE BASEMENT BURNS

Sitting on a sunny evening in June. Looking out of the open window; the sky is blue, the sun shines, birds sing, trees grow verdantly along with grass and vibrant flowers, the air is clear and fresh and all around life is burgeoning and thriving.

But down in the basement, an electrical fault - a design-glitch in an old and ill-maintained boiler - sends a small flame along a length of wiring, and a tiny spark shoots down and smoulders slowly and falteringly in a pile of stacked, dry and aged newspapers. The fire fails to take hold and the red edges fade to black. But a puff of breeze breathes across the pile of paper, blown in through a broken pane of glass in a small window at ground level. And it's enough, just enough, to fan and nurture, to persuade that still just-lingering speck of heat to leap into life and eat a hole into the top page of a 1969 edition of the Times which headlines the amazing feat of man's first walk on the moon. Slowly and haltingly the flames immolate the stack of kindling paper, until a small fire burns confidently and increasingly.


Up on the other two floors of the house the percolating coffee smells good and birdsong is still heard - lucid and sweetly clear. The dog lying by the back door sniffs the air and whimpers a little, and a bee buzzes bumblingly across the open door. All is very well. Is sublimely perfect.


Down by the foundations of the house the dust has began to spark and catch alight, and here and there hotspots ignite and blaze, pushing their flaming tendrils across and upwards into every part of the space, until the entire basement is a ferocious burning pyre.


Upstairs, the smell of a baking apple pie wafts through the kitchen and into the hall, blown along by soft puffs of warm, sun-soaked early evening air. A chilled bottle of wine runs globules of clear condensation down its jewel green sides and dust-motes sink, glittering in the evening sunlight. The air calms and slowly cools in peaceful serenity.


At first the only sign that the house is in dire and catastrophic danger is a sneaking fog of grey smoke that pries its way under the basement door. Gently and silently it rises and dissolves, spreading out into the still, warm air. The dog lifts its head, alert - nose twitching. He stands with ears cocked and eyes wide - aware that something is amiss.


Still the sun goes on shining and the pie is crustily brown, with oozing apple leaking from between its crimped edges. Someone smiles as they walk in from the garden with a basket full of early Summer strawberries, lettuce, tomatoes and courgettes. They place the new-picked produce on the table and sip from a glass of wine, savouring the apple-pie smell that fills the kitchen air as they turn down the heat underneath the bubbling coffee on the Aga.


Now, not only smoke, but a blazing flash of flame lights the gap under the basement door and heats the floorboard there.


The wine-drinker walks out into the summer night garden to enjoy the abundant bounty of the country garden; the peaceful and soothing sounds of a day winding down. A woodpecker urgently drums on an old oak tree, and a frog splashes into the pond from a mossy rock placed at its edge.


Despite the raging inferno that is destroying everything in the basement and is now advancing into the house through the basement door - a door that is turning brown as its paint crackles, curls and blisters off - nothing in the garden or the house changes. Only the restless dog is aware that there is danger and destruction building.


As the flames dart out from under the door they draw intensity from the polished, aged floorboards and, as these start to burn, the flames advance across the floor and spread to the skirting boards and bottom of the walls, singeing and catching the paper. Up above, mounted in the ceiling, is a smoke alarm. But its cover is open - the battery removed because it kept screeching when toast or bacon was cooked, and this irritated the householders. So the simple early warning system is disabled, and the fire advances, unchecked.


In the sitting room, a man dozes. Laid out on a velvet sofa, ivory damask curtains half-pulled against the early evening sunset. A drained cut-glass tumbler has been emptied of its third large malted scotch. A smoke tendril grazes into the room and is pushed further by a billow of air. Slowly, but inexorably, the smoke grows as the man sleeps on, until the room is half-filled by the black, billowing clouds of acrid fume.


In the distant night-sky lead-bullet clouds gather and build, and rumbles of thunder prowl around the sky, growling out a warning like a dog who knows that a dangerous stranger has come to the doorstep.


The family dog starts barking and running from the back door to the edge of the deck. Back and forwards, barking and then whining -agitated and growing more frantic as he is ignored. He is hushed and told to calm down - there's nothing to worry about. The woman of the house frowns at the dog's grating yelps that are ruining the peace of the sublime summer evening - ruining the atmosphere of perfect, graceful, opulent and easy living that the householders have worked so hard to build and maintain. The beautiful house and garden, furnished with the best furniture and paintings, the finest cloths, quality fittings and finishes. When they had been advised to replace the boiler and heating system they balked at the cost and the inconvenience that would have meant floorboards being ripped up, pipes re-laid and radiators re-sited and re-fitted. And instead opted to wait another year or two and paved over the front garden to use as extra parking for the motor-home they'd purchased to use on weekends as a getaway to the great outdoors. For adventures away from the responsibility of their luxury lifestyle with its ever-gnawing need for upkeep and maintenance, cost, work and worry.


But this evening, even with the growls of a broiling, churning storm in the distance, everything was perfect - was the gorgeous example and justification for all the sacrifices made; friendships and family ignored, endless stress-filled hours working, holidays forsaken and children put into expensive child-care facilities. But this evening vindicated all the regret and worry. For this sublime and perfect picture was the reality of the dream they had worked for.


And the flames catch on the rug on the polished oak floorboards in the hallway. A rug brought back from a trip to India - made by the hands of a dozen weavers, over endless hours, from the finest silks. Gone in 15 seconds - its succulent silken colours fuel for the glorious fire that devours and uses it to gorge its flames. A prescient blast of wind from the gathering thunderstorm on the horizon blows through the back door, the kitchen and into the hall sending the flames out and up, engorging the fire, blowing it up to three times its size in a moment, and sending it raging down the hall and into the door of the kitchen; its ferocious and startling flames roaring its way through the house now. Up the stairs and into the dining room, catching curtains and carpets, burning books and magazines, devouring picture and photographs. The TV explodes and the laptop melts - its black cover like oil spreading over the coffee table and onto the carpet, billowing out noxious, toxic fumes.


The door to the sitting room where the man was sleeping is now blocked by flames and the room is thick with smoke. And it's impossible to tell whether he is still because he sleeps on, or is unconscious or dead.


The woman wanders to the edge of the garden as it slopes down and looks across to the other side of the valley. She watches the advancing storm and feels a seed of unease and irritation. As she lingers she smells an evening bonfire that she supposes has been lit by a neighbour. It has the scent of wood and she guesses that someone has cut some trees back and is disposing of the branches. She can hear no crackles though and, as yet, she can see no smoke. From a few streets away she can hear the cawls and mewls of cats circling for a fight and the doleful and fearful cries end the peace and perfection. All at once everything feels wrong; the storm and darkening sky, the smell of the bonfire, the caterwauling coming closer as the warring felines advance down the road.


The dog cowers under the gap beneath the shed, his haunches quivering in terror. A murder of crows flap a cacophony as they whorl out of the ancient oak tree which shades the top of the garden.


She swallows a mouthful of the wine in the glass - wine that has warmed in the night air and no longer tastes of chilled oaked tropical fruit and vanilla, but now has a slight acid tang to it. She turns and walks back up the mowed, neat lawn and, as she reaches the deck, a bright flash catches her attention from inside the kitchen and an uberous billow of smoke belches out, mimicking the growing thunder clouds which are towering closer now.


Does she rush in, see the advancing fire and grab the phone by the back-door and call the fire brigade? Does she run to a neighbour's and ask them to alert the services? Does she frantically panic when she realises that her husband is inside and the only way through the house is now a storming rage of fire and smoke? Does she grab the fire extinguisher by the back door and douse the encroaching flames with futile sprays of foam? Does she turn the outside tap on and run the hose into the kitchen dousing the flames?


Does she shut the kitchen door and turn and walk away, telling herself that since it’s all lost and ruined there is no point in trying to quell the fire. Does she stand and watch the night-show as the thunder explodes with ear-cracking claps, and the brilliant, searing lightning reveals the landscape with the clarity of a blinding summer sun.


Does she turn her back as the basement and the house and the neighbourhood burn.


Does she sip on the ruined wine as the world burns?


What does she do?


What would you do?


Are our backs already turned as the basement burns?

Saturday, 18 May 2013

THAT'S YOU, ME IS


I’ve been doing some reading lately; reading of a particular kind.  The books focus mainly on the story of humanity and they propose, in the main, alternative stories which may or may not be true.   They’re certainly interesting and sound more plausible than the ones we currently have about ‘How Things Are’.  But plausibility is no guarantee of authenticity. 

One of these books rendered my mood distinctly pessimistic, with an overwhelming sense of impotence and ‘what-the-fuck’-ness; which is a very rational emotional and cognitive response to the stories that we collectively believe to be ‘true’ about ‘How Things Are’.  This book, particularly, was:

(a) aiming to discredit and debunk, and
(b) present alternative stories which the author asserts are the ‘real’ stories about ‘How Things Are’.

I have no idea whether the stories the author proposes to be true, actually are (although he did print one piece of information that stunned me speechless with horror, but which I subsequently found out was incorrect).  So, whilst you can do your own research into some issues, you are never going to get the whole story, and even if you did how would you know whether or not  what you’re being told is ACTUALLY how it is? 

Then I realised that it doesn’t actually matter whether or not the stories are true.  It doesn’t matter how things GOT to be the way they are.  It doesn’t matter whether humanity was created by god, is a result of the big bang, evolved from apes, was deposited on earth as an extra-terrestrial experiment.  It really doesn’t matter WHAT the story says about how things got to be the way they are.  What matters is what IS happening right now. 

And what IS happening is that human-kind as a species is growing exponentially year on year and, as a species, is increasingly consuming.  Not consuming enough just to exist or stay stable as a species, but consuming vastly and uncontrollably.  And in so doing, using resources at a rate which will ensure that, at some point, those resources will be used up.  

The fuels, minerals and metals will all be mined.  

The trees will have all been cut down.  

The land will be depleted and sterile.  

The rivers and seas will be polluted and poisoned.  

The other myriad species that live on earth will be extinct, except for those that we keep alive in controlled habitats.

We will be fucked.  That’s not just a story; and it doesn’t matter whether anyone believes it to be THE TRUE story.  It is actually happening.  It IS reality. 

And I’m not saying that consuming, per se, is wrong.  We have to consume in order to live.  It’s just what we consume and the way in which we do it.

And I’m not actually even saying that the way that we currently do it is wrong.  It’s just not very clever.  Unless of course the outcome you’re trying to achieve is a barren planet incapable of sustaining life. (Although I think it’s pretty likely that life will thrive again even on what we would see as a barren planet, since we’re all made of the same stuff – or non-stuff – according to how you see it.)

But if you don't think that would be a desirable outcome then to continue consuming in the way that we do is not a very smart methodology of ensuring that we as a species, and all the other species that we need to keep us going, will continue to thrive in a sustainable – and dare I say it - happy  way.

Here's the thing though - it’s not ‘them’ doing it.  It’s not ‘you’ doing it.  It’s me.  I am the one consuming.  I am the one who wears clothes, and eats food, and uses soap and shampoo.  Who sleeps in a bed and sits on a sofa.  Who watches TV and uses a laptop and a kindle.  Who speaks on a mobile phone and uses transport.  

It’s me.

If everyone were to stop saying ‘they’ or ‘you’.  And instead faced up to the fact that it’s ‘me’, then things might change to a more desirable outcome.  Or they might not.  But until each of us realise that ‘it’s me’ then we’ll go on abdicating responsibility and feeling impotent and useless and powerless.  We’ll continue shrugging our shoulders and blaming governments and corporations, and secret societies, and bureaucracies and red tape, and presidents and politics and big business.   Because it’s not them.  It’s you.  It’s me.  We are they.  I am them.  Without me, they can’t be. 

It is a truism that change starts with yourself.  And the reason it’s a truism is well... because it’s true.  The only change and the only difference you can make is by the actions that you take.  Whatever they may be.  Even if you decide that you actually don’t care that human-kind as a species eradicates itself and the world it lives in, with and on.  At least you’ll be consciously owning up to the responsibility of the part that you play.  

However, if you do decide that it matters, then it’s not going to change because ‘they’ do something about it.  They might all be the ones that decide that it doesn’t matter.  It will only change when you realise ‘it’s me’; until there’s enough ‘me’s’ to make a ‘they’.  A ‘they’ that will have an impact on why things get done and how they get done.

And the changes don’t have to be big.  You don’t have to save the world.  I don’t have to save the world.  You just have to do SOMETHING.  The something that only YOU can do.  Whatever it is. 

And the way to start is by thinking about what it is you actually want, what actually matters to you.  Then, when you’ve worked out what it is, have a look and see what part your actions play in going against the reality of what you want.  Whether it’s eating food from a supermarket, buying too much stuff, not using your talents to help yourself and others, travelling too much, eating too much, bitching too much, designing crap buildings, selling shoddy, pointless merchandise, dumping your rubbish, ..... you fill in the blanks – they’re infinite and specific to you - which is the good news and the bad news.  Because they’re specific to you, only you can do something about them.  Which means of course, that once you’ve stopped thinking about what you want and how what you do prevents what you want from happening, you do actually have to do something.

You do actually have to do something. 

I actually have to do something. 

And then we’ll have a ‘they’ that are actually doing something.  And it won’t be anyone else’s fault.  And it won’t be anyone else’s mistake.  And it won’t be anyone else providing the solution and making the change.  It will be me and it will be you.  Each one of us.

So if I were in the business of giving advice (and, generally, I’m not, because as someone once said about advice: “A wise man doesn’t need it, and a fool won’t take it”), then this is the only bit I feel is of any use:

Focus in, then give out.

Think about what matters to you.  Think about what you want reality to be.  Then take action.  Do it.  Make the changes that you can.  Use your talent.  Everyone has something that they’re good at.  Everyone.

Whether it’s cooking, gardening, mathematics, hugging, encouraging, seeing the wood for the trees, abstaining, listening, talking, writing, coaching, being a terrible warning, typing, speaking out, recycling, designing, building, campaigning, performing... again you fill in the blank – again they’re infinite and specific to you.

Find that thing, or things, that you do well, keep doing it or them, and see what happens.  And you don’t have to be great at them. And they don’t have to be big things.  You don’t have to be the best painter, or the greatest architect or designer, or the kindest or most loving person, or the best writer.  You just need to be good enough to do it, and to keep doing it, until you become the best you can at it.

So, do it for yourself and then do it for those that can’t.  I have a very firm conviction that if you do whatever it is you’re good for and do it for those that can’t, then it transforms.  Not all the time, and in all ways.  But enough to be life-changing and to give meaning and purpose.  To forge connections and, yes, to make a difference.  And I’m not talking about forming a movement, or a group or a new world view, or society.  Change doesn’t really happen like that.  It happens in small, incremental ways by people doing what they do best, as often as they can.

It just depends what it is we want to be different, and in what way.....

And THAT is up to me..... isn't it?


Monday, 6 May 2013

PASS IT ON.....

Read this book, if you please: http://www.ishmael.com/origins/story_of_b/

In my, not so humble but perfectly credible, opinion - it is brilliant.


And I'm aware that my last two posts have been to recommend the writings of others.  That's because they say what I can't and, even if I were able to, they do it so much more eloquently and clearly than I ever could.  So if I am unable to conceive and communicate the kind of vision they have, I can at least add my voice to it and pass it on.  Because every voice that gets added grows the message.


So, if you've a mind to, read it, understand what it's saying and pass it on to as many as you can.  


I think it's important - o.k?  And, yes, I fully realise that it's not important in an ultimate sense, because whether or not our species, in its present form, drives itself into extinction matters not a gnat's willy.  It matters not in a very real sense, in a species sense, in a world's sense, certainly not in a universal sense, and not even in a personal sense; not really.  Because there is nothing driving THIS.  It happens as it happens, it is what it is.  And that's not a new-age, airy-fairy pronouncement; it's a bare fact.  It is what it is, it does what it does and it happens how it happens.  


If you understand the messages of the writers that I've flagged, and feel inspired to add your voice then that too is just what's happening.  But, given the choice, and you are given a choice (even though you don't get to choose the choices you're given, natch), why not choose the vision and the message that frees you from the idea that you need to be saved, from the belief that what is happening is the only way it can happen.  


The only way change happens is by one person adding their voice and their intention and their action.  One at a time....


Do you care to add yours?  Of course, it's entirely up to you.